I have amazing friends.
You know why? Because I just do. And I know it.
A friend is someone who never leaves you. Who you can trust, enjoy, talk to, love and someone who loves you back. Each one of my friends fit these qualities. And I love them for it.
Friends may come, and friends may go. But even in the roughest of times, the true ones are always by your side; no matter what the circumstances. Recent happenings in my life have turned upside down to the point where I find myself questioning who my friends are. But I know that the true friends are the ones who will fight to keep my friendship and stay with me to the end, no matter if I'm straying away or staying true to my friends.
Recently, I've been tested to the point where I wonder if I'm being a good friend at all. If I'm not keeping up my end of the friendship, or if I'm relying on a friend too much so that I let them do all the work.
Being friends with me is tough. I am a tough person to work with, so to speak. I am manipulative, can be harsh and straight forward, and occasionally complaining or rude. My true friends know this. But my true friends also know that theres more to me than that. They love me for me. And I'm grateful.
I'm finding more and more each day how hard it is to have a relationship with someone. Not a romantic relationship, just a normal plain-old relationship. It's tough. Guess what? Your friends will let you down. They'll abandon you, and sometimes they just won't fight for your friendship. I have friends even now who are doing this to me. But that's ok. I'm learning this more and more. That it's ok when your friends fall. Because they will. And wether you are able to help them up or not, it's your choice. Are you gonna live selflessly and move on? Or will you be so expectant on your friend, that when they fail, you leave?
This was just a random post on how I've been feeling lately. Feel free to comment your thoughts!
Love,
Cari
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Monday, September 30, 2013
Monday, September 23, 2013
Catching up a bit..
Hello friends,
Well I am officially graduated! This summer was a blast. I turned 18 years old, got my drivers license and also got way closer to the Lord then I ever have been before. He is so great and good to me. I seriously can not keep talking about the amazing things God has been doing for me, and I know is going to do.
This year, God called me to leave the Agape Mime Team. Man, it was so hard. This would have been my 4th year on the team, and it's been such a blessing to be apart of an awesome ministry. But, God hasn't stopped there. He's called me into leadership with my youth group, Beastmode Youth, and I've come into the position of head of worship. I lead a team of amazing worshippers and musicians, and it is so fun. Doing what I love, while worshipping my God. At first, I was scared when I was asked to be a leader. I mean, I thought it meant talking in front of people (imagine that!) and other horridness things. But, no. It's so much simpler when you ask God to help. I feel more equipped to do His work in this youth group because He is the ultimate giver of strength, and that's all I need.
Lets see...oh! Want to know another awesome thing God has done for me? Provided me that job I was asking for. I'm babysitting for an awesome mom, and it's really going great.
I'm not currently enrolled in any school classes this semester, but I'm still continuing in my busy schedule! Piano lessons are great, I'm trying hard to improve even more and learn new things. I'm trying to write music to eventually produce an album, but we'll see what God wants to do with that.
OK, so that's a bit of an update on me.
xo,
Cari
Well I am officially graduated! This summer was a blast. I turned 18 years old, got my drivers license and also got way closer to the Lord then I ever have been before. He is so great and good to me. I seriously can not keep talking about the amazing things God has been doing for me, and I know is going to do.
This year, God called me to leave the Agape Mime Team. Man, it was so hard. This would have been my 4th year on the team, and it's been such a blessing to be apart of an awesome ministry. But, God hasn't stopped there. He's called me into leadership with my youth group, Beastmode Youth, and I've come into the position of head of worship. I lead a team of amazing worshippers and musicians, and it is so fun. Doing what I love, while worshipping my God. At first, I was scared when I was asked to be a leader. I mean, I thought it meant talking in front of people (imagine that!) and other horridness things. But, no. It's so much simpler when you ask God to help. I feel more equipped to do His work in this youth group because He is the ultimate giver of strength, and that's all I need.
Lets see...oh! Want to know another awesome thing God has done for me? Provided me that job I was asking for. I'm babysitting for an awesome mom, and it's really going great.
I'm not currently enrolled in any school classes this semester, but I'm still continuing in my busy schedule! Piano lessons are great, I'm trying hard to improve even more and learn new things. I'm trying to write music to eventually produce an album, but we'll see what God wants to do with that.
OK, so that's a bit of an update on me.
xo,
Cari
Saturday, April 6, 2013
Being Me.
Hello fancy followers! {and if you're not following me, follow me! It's fun:)}
I wanted to ramble about something that's been on my mind recently. I've been looking at what makes some of the famous people on YouTube.. famous. YouTube is such an opener of doors these days; anyone can see you, anyone can notice and like or dislike what you do. It's kind of scary when I sit down and really think about it. A homeless man looking for a pretty girl to stare at could watch me on his local library computer or vice verses; some of my favorite YouTubers like Alex Goot or Christina Grimmie could watch me and email me wanting to do a duet with me. Anyways, it's a double whammy; the good and the bad. I've been researching what makes these YouTubers so famous. What makes their videos get over 1,000,000 views each time? Then I figured it out:
They are themselves.
It's so simple, and yet so complicated! They don't try and copy what other YouTubers do, they don't act like someone else; they're simply themselves. They do what THEY as an individual likes to do in videos. And that makes them stand out.
Back to the title of this blog post. Throughout my life I've always been uncomfortable with me. With myself, my personality, my looks; I didn't like me. When I was 13 I tried to become someone else by taking someone who I considered a role model to me and copied them. I copied everything they did. I covered up who I was/am made to be with the desire to become someone else.
God's really been showing me that I'm more than what I told myself I was. That I am not that person I wanted to be like. That I'm not just some girl who has nothing to show for herself. That I am worth something.
So for this past year (2012), I've been searching myself out. Trying to find the personality that I had hidden from the world so long ago. Trying to uncover the thoughts desires, and character that God originated for me and me only. And the hardest thing through this process is that I constantly have to tell myself that God has a reason for giving me the personality I have. I get so bugged when I act a certain way and think "well that was dumb. Everyone must think that was stupid."
But the thing is? My closest friends love me. And so does the God who created me. So why do I need to be different on YouTube just to fit into that world? If it's God's will I'll be able to show my talent to the world soon enough...but I think He's waiting for me to develop the relationship with Him. That way He has room to work His crazy ways. :)
Anyway, just thought I'd throw that out there. Love you guys!
Cari
I wanted to ramble about something that's been on my mind recently. I've been looking at what makes some of the famous people on YouTube.. famous. YouTube is such an opener of doors these days; anyone can see you, anyone can notice and like or dislike what you do. It's kind of scary when I sit down and really think about it. A homeless man looking for a pretty girl to stare at could watch me on his local library computer or vice verses; some of my favorite YouTubers like Alex Goot or Christina Grimmie could watch me and email me wanting to do a duet with me. Anyways, it's a double whammy; the good and the bad. I've been researching what makes these YouTubers so famous. What makes their videos get over 1,000,000 views each time? Then I figured it out:
They are themselves.
It's so simple, and yet so complicated! They don't try and copy what other YouTubers do, they don't act like someone else; they're simply themselves. They do what THEY as an individual likes to do in videos. And that makes them stand out.
Back to the title of this blog post. Throughout my life I've always been uncomfortable with me. With myself, my personality, my looks; I didn't like me. When I was 13 I tried to become someone else by taking someone who I considered a role model to me and copied them. I copied everything they did. I covered up who I was/am made to be with the desire to become someone else.
God's really been showing me that I'm more than what I told myself I was. That I am not that person I wanted to be like. That I'm not just some girl who has nothing to show for herself. That I am worth something.
So for this past year (2012), I've been searching myself out. Trying to find the personality that I had hidden from the world so long ago. Trying to uncover the thoughts desires, and character that God originated for me and me only. And the hardest thing through this process is that I constantly have to tell myself that God has a reason for giving me the personality I have. I get so bugged when I act a certain way and think "well that was dumb. Everyone must think that was stupid."
But the thing is? My closest friends love me. And so does the God who created me. So why do I need to be different on YouTube just to fit into that world? If it's God's will I'll be able to show my talent to the world soon enough...but I think He's waiting for me to develop the relationship with Him. That way He has room to work His crazy ways. :)
Anyway, just thought I'd throw that out there. Love you guys!
Cari
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
How great is our God.
Hello friends and family!
Long time since I last posted on my blog, and a lot has been happening in my life at the present moment!
Well, for one thing, I applied for my first job two weeks ago. It was one of the most terrifying things I had ever done, let me tell you that. I applied at Chick-Fil-A in Ventura. It was a great interview, and less scary than I had made myself believe. I didn't get the job, but it's OK because I know God must have something greater in store for me.
Also, I took my written test for a permit, and I passed! It was (and is) a great thrill for me, being able to drive. There is so much freedom, and yet so much more responsibility! I feel...older, in a sense. Job interviews, driving, turning 18 in four months..it's all insane, really. But, I suppose each person has to start somewhere.
I have had an opportunity that I believe God is calling me to do, and that is to apply for a summer job at Hartland Christian Camp this summer. It would be very hard for me, leaving my friends and family for two months to go live and work at a camp, but I feel it will be good for me. I am praying extensively about this, because I do not want to go unless it's totally God asking me to go. The job I'm applying to do is to be on the food service staff; cleaning, serving tables, washing dishes, etc. It's exciting, and a little scary at the same time, but I have a huge desire to do what I enjoy doing; serving and loving God. I ask for prayer from all of you as well, and if you could be doing that I'd really appreciate it!
I didn't get into Comic Con this year, sadly, but I'm assuming God doesn't want me to go this year. He's helping me cope with the sad news!
I also just got back from my youth group's winter camp at Lake Hughes, CA. It was an amazing experiance, and I couldn't have had a better time! God is so good, and He really shows up when we ask Him to. He worked through my youth pastor to speak words and prayers to me that encouraged, uplifted and excited me tremendously! I am so much more in love with God since then!
One last note, my prayers go out to the Merrick family, who just lost their baby girl after battling three years of cancer. Praying hard for their family!
Well, that's all for now :) Hope you are all well and happy!
With love,
Cari Frantz
Long time since I last posted on my blog, and a lot has been happening in my life at the present moment!
Well, for one thing, I applied for my first job two weeks ago. It was one of the most terrifying things I had ever done, let me tell you that. I applied at Chick-Fil-A in Ventura. It was a great interview, and less scary than I had made myself believe. I didn't get the job, but it's OK because I know God must have something greater in store for me.
Also, I took my written test for a permit, and I passed! It was (and is) a great thrill for me, being able to drive. There is so much freedom, and yet so much more responsibility! I feel...older, in a sense. Job interviews, driving, turning 18 in four months..it's all insane, really. But, I suppose each person has to start somewhere.
I have had an opportunity that I believe God is calling me to do, and that is to apply for a summer job at Hartland Christian Camp this summer. It would be very hard for me, leaving my friends and family for two months to go live and work at a camp, but I feel it will be good for me. I am praying extensively about this, because I do not want to go unless it's totally God asking me to go. The job I'm applying to do is to be on the food service staff; cleaning, serving tables, washing dishes, etc. It's exciting, and a little scary at the same time, but I have a huge desire to do what I enjoy doing; serving and loving God. I ask for prayer from all of you as well, and if you could be doing that I'd really appreciate it!
I didn't get into Comic Con this year, sadly, but I'm assuming God doesn't want me to go this year. He's helping me cope with the sad news!
I also just got back from my youth group's winter camp at Lake Hughes, CA. It was an amazing experiance, and I couldn't have had a better time! God is so good, and He really shows up when we ask Him to. He worked through my youth pastor to speak words and prayers to me that encouraged, uplifted and excited me tremendously! I am so much more in love with God since then!
One last note, my prayers go out to the Merrick family, who just lost their baby girl after battling three years of cancer. Praying hard for their family!
Well, that's all for now :) Hope you are all well and happy!
With love,
Cari Frantz
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Disneyland, River Song's Journal....
Hello all,
Well, Disneyland trip went fantastic. My mom has been having severe foot problems lately, so I pushed her all day in a wheelchair. That alone destroyed the palms of my hands; they were bruised and burned. To add to that, my knees have been acting up lately, so I could barley walk the day after Disneyland. Strangely, my feet swelled up quite huge, for no apparent reason. So, to sum it up, the day after Disneyland, I couldn't walk or hold anything with my hands. Naturally, I was quite bored. I had watched the first Doctor Who episode with River Song, and I highly admired her journal. I decided, since I had nothing else special to do, to make one. It took all day, but I did it, and am quite proud of it! There are some pictures below:
So, that's that! I followed these online directions, if you wanted to try it!
http://snapguide.com/guides/make-river-songs-journal-doctor-who/
http://www.onecobble.com/2011/09/23/making-river-songs-journal/
http://katien22.deviantart.com/art/TARDIS-Journal-template-244104429?q=gallery%3Akatien22%20randomize%3A1&qo=2
Allons-Y!
Cari
Well, Disneyland trip went fantastic. My mom has been having severe foot problems lately, so I pushed her all day in a wheelchair. That alone destroyed the palms of my hands; they were bruised and burned. To add to that, my knees have been acting up lately, so I could barley walk the day after Disneyland. Strangely, my feet swelled up quite huge, for no apparent reason. So, to sum it up, the day after Disneyland, I couldn't walk or hold anything with my hands. Naturally, I was quite bored. I had watched the first Doctor Who episode with River Song, and I highly admired her journal. I decided, since I had nothing else special to do, to make one. It took all day, but I did it, and am quite proud of it! There are some pictures below:
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| START |
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| The finished project!!!! |
So, that's that! I followed these online directions, if you wanted to try it!
http://snapguide.com/guides/make-river-songs-journal-doctor-who/
http://www.onecobble.com/2011/09/23/making-river-songs-journal/
http://katien22.deviantart.com/art/TARDIS-Journal-template-244104429?q=gallery%3Akatien22%20randomize%3A1&qo=2
Allons-Y!
Cari
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Friendship
I had a chance to fellowship and pray with two of my best friends at youth group yesterday, and during that time, I thought about how wonderful my friends really are. I used to think that friends were just people who you'd hang out with and talk, but it's become so much more than that for me. I really realized how much I needed my friends to be able to cope with things. For instance, when having family troubles, or I just need to get away, what do I do? I'll call my friends, it's a natural thing to do. And I also realize how much trust I put in my friends' hands. These two girls especially. They know most everything about me, and I trust them to not tell anyone, and to keep my secrets safe. I also know them well enough to know that they're there when I need prayer, a shoulder to hang on, or someone to talk to. We're operating together in God, which makes things so much more fun and interesting. I was able to talk to them, and we always have something to say such as "God did THIS in my life!" or "God is really showing me this!" and we're able to encourage each other. This post is just to say how much I really do love these two dear friends of mine, and all my friends really :) Don't feel excluded! You're included in this, too :)
Anyways, just food for thought. Think about your friends and how you're impacting them. Because you never know how it could change their lives, for the good or for the bad.
~=*Cari*=~
Anyways, just food for thought. Think about your friends and how you're impacting them. Because you never know how it could change their lives, for the good or for the bad.
~=*Cari*=~
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| ME and my best friend, Hannah G. |
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| Me and my best friend, Kaila P |
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