Friends...and other things.

I have amazing friends.

You know why?  Because I just do.  And I know it.

A friend is someone who never leaves you.  Who you can trust, enjoy, talk to, love and someone who loves you back.  Each one of my friends fit these qualities.  And I love them for it.

Friends may come, and friends may go.  But even in the roughest of times, the true ones are always by your side; no matter what the circumstances.  Recent happenings in my life have turned upside down to the point where I find myself questioning who my friends are.  But I know that the true friends are the ones who will fight to keep my friendship and stay with me to the end, no matter if I'm straying away or staying true to my friends.
Recently, I've been tested to the point where I wonder if I'm being a good friend at all.  If I'm not keeping up my end of the friendship, or if I'm relying on a friend too much so that I let them do all the work.
Being friends with me is tough.  I am a tough person to work with, so to speak.  I am manipulative, can be harsh and straight forward, and occasionally complaining or rude.  My true friends know this.  But my true friends also know that theres more to me than that.  They love me for me.  And I'm grateful.
I'm finding more and more each day how hard it is to have a relationship with someone.  Not a romantic relationship, just a normal plain-old relationship.  It's tough.  Guess what?  Your friends will let you down.  They'll abandon you, and sometimes they just won't fight for your friendship.  I have friends even now who are doing this to me.  But that's ok.  I'm learning this more and more.  That it's ok when your friends fall.  Because they will.  And wether you are able to help them up or not, it's your choice.  Are you gonna live selflessly and move on?  Or will you be so expectant on your friend, that when they fail, you leave?

This was just a random post on how I've been feeling lately.  Feel free to comment your thoughts!

Love,
Cari

My Tops

Top 5 Movies:
Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs
The Lorax
Shrek 4: Shrek Forever After
The Avengers
Thor

Top 5 Musicals:
Aladdin: A Musical Spectacular
Seven Brides for Seven Brothers
The Little Mermaid
Peter Pan the Show
Beauty and the Beast

Top 5 TV Shows:
Doctor Who
Downton Abbey
Once Upon a Time
Psych
Monk

Top 5 Books:
The Bible
The Hunger Games
Catching Fire
The Alcott Legacy {it's a 3 part series, it counts :)}
Peter and the Starcatchers

Top 5 Music bands:
Hot Chelle Rae
Smash Mouth
Any form of movie soundtrack
Alex Goot
Maroon5

Top 10 Composers {yes, I need to have 10.  There are just too many great ones out there}:
Thomas Newman {A Series of Unfortunate Events}
James Newton Howard {The Water Horse Suite}
Danny Elfman {Alice in Wonderland}
Klaus Badelt {The Time Machine}
Harry Gregson-Williams {The Chronicles of Narnia, Shrek}
John Williams {War Horse}
Bill Whelan {Riverdance}
Benjamin Wallfisch {Peter Pan the Show}
Mark Mothersbaugh {Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs}
John Powell {How to Train Your Dragon}

Top 5 Actors:
Tom Hiddleston
Rob James-Collier
Johnny Depp
Sebastian Stan
Robert Downey Jr.

Top 5 Songs:
Somebody That I Used to Know by Gotye
In Her Eyes by Josh Groban
Daylight by Maroon5
Spiderman by Michael Buble
Feelin Good by Michael Buble

Top 5 Foods:
Cheese Bagel
Mediterranean Food {Falafels, Hummus...}
Peanut Buttery Things
Caesar Salad
Italian Food